Haiz.... I seriously think something is wrong with me recently but I don't know where the problem lies.
On Sunday after watching the hot and sexy Ella as well as handsome and charming Chun on the computer at the Music Top award ceremony, I went to bed.
However in the middle of the night I woke up. I tried to fall back to sleep but I just couldn't. I took my pillow and found another sleeping position. However I still woke up. Don't know at what time I finally fell back into sleep.
Monday was really busy at work. I had like tons of work to do plus I was sms-ing with Cherry the whole day at work so the day passed by rather fast. On the way home, I just fell asleep in the car. Once I reached home, I watched TV for a while before having my dinner and watching somemore TV.
At 9pm, I went to bed. I don't know why I went to bed that early. Maybe I was really tired. Anyway at around 11pm, I woke up from my short nap.
I checked the forums again and saved all the new Music Top photos of S.H.E and Fahrenheit. After which I went back to bed. However I could not sleep at all. So in the end it became an sms session with Nad and Dinah.
At close to 1am, Dinah called and I had a long chat with her. These few days P-CE had been feeling so down and sort of unlucky. Almost all of us are in the emo mode and its like all of us are taking turns falling ill.
Anyway I ended the call with Dinah at close to 5am after hearing my mum's alarm clock go off =P I fall back into sleep after that and woke up at 7am to go to Raffles to settle some work.
However, before I even leave the house I was already having diahorrea. But I still went ahead and took a cab to Raffles to settle my work. However I really could not stand the tummyache so I went to the doctor and took MC for today.
For the whole day I didn't do much except watch a bit of Hana Kimi, sms Dinah, Cherry, Nad and Jollin. Then also had a nearly 3 hour conference call with Cherry and Dinah.
After ending the call and having a shower, I rot in front of the TV and the laptop again. Haiz... I really wonder if I can fall asleep tonight. Despite not sleeping much the night before and having gastric flu surprisingly I don't feel tired at all. I seriously am wondering what is wrong with me. Haiz......
I just got back home from an outing with friends who I haven't been out with in a long long time. Don't know why I just suddenly slipped into my emotional mode again....
I slept super early at like 8:30pm on Thursday and didn't really woke up until 8:30am on Friday morning. Don't ask me how I did that cause I just can do it. Anyway... The first thing I did was to bring my phone to charge and checked my sms-es. Truth be told, I had like sms coming in like mad.
Then the bomb dropped.... Ella will be having a new drama and the male lead is Jerry Yan! Seriously at that moment I just jumped out of bed. I immediately switched on the computer and logged into the forums I visited. I ran between the living room and my room to check the news, reply news and sms my friends. Don't know why... While I was replying sms I just suddenly cried. Not for long though, just dropped a few tears...
Anyway my whole mood was deeply affected then. I just simply runned in and out of the room to reply sms.
Since I had an appointment with Laywei, Chris and Summer for karaoke session at Top 1. I just showered, had breakfast then went out. However I had to get something for work at Raffles Place so I took a cab there and on the way my phone was never quiet too.
After getting the things, I took the train to Top 1 and met up with Chris and Laywei who were already there. So we started singing and while singing my phone never rested as well.
Everyone was more or less affected by the news but as the day progressed we sort of became fine with it. After all it is already confirmed and there was nothing we can do about it.
After singing, together with Summer who joined us at around 2 plus we headed off to a steamboat place and had steamboat for dinner. It wasn't that expensive and it was rather nice. Maybe that's why I'm still here now cause I ate too much and am still full.
After dinner we wanted to watch movie but Bugis didn't had the show we wanted so we walked from Bugis to Orchard.
On the way I called Nad since our phone calls previously had to be cut off due to some reasons or another. Haiz... All I say is that this drama still causes a stir in some of us...
We checked The Cathay but it didn't have the show we wanted so we walked to Plaza Singapura. However the last slot for that movie has already started so we decided to look for a place to chill. We sat at Secret Receipe to had cakes and talked.
At 11pm, we all made our way home since the shop was closing.
On the way home I was chatting with Chris on the bus.
Seriously I don't know why my passion for CE this time lasted for so long. 3 years... It's really long isn't it? I don't even know why I'm doing all these.
What makes me so sure that they are together? What keeps the believe burning in my heart? Was it really the believe or are we all just deceiving ourselves? I seriously have no idea to all these questions.
I remember I once asked Dinah and the rest of my CE friends. What will happen one day if CE gets married to other people? All of us had the same answer. Cry our hearts out and never believe in celebrities couple again.
I guess I had been really down lately. I can read stories, blogs, listen to songs and suddenly start crying. I don't know what is wrong with me? Is it because I have seen too many peopel leaving the world these days that I just control my emotions? Or is it because the idea that many people will be leaving to pursue their future next year that is killing me? I really don't know.....
I alighted the bus and plugged in my mp3. I don't know why I like to torture myself. I looked through the songs and suddenly played the song which I knew will affect me. I don't know why I did that. Maybe I just want to cry my hearts out.
And that's what I did. I listened as the song was played and cried. I can only be glad that it was close to midnight so there wasn't many people walking along that stretch of road. I allowed my tears to flow as I walked. I don't even want anything to cross my mind....
Actually this song was really long and it had never brought any feelings to me but recently when I heard Aaron Yan singing it at the Fahrenheit's concert in KL, I got all emotional about it. When I heard it last month I already felt like crying but I didn't cause I was in a crowded place and I had people around me. Subsequently when I heard it I always had that feel but I didn't cry.
Today when I sang it at the KTV I really got the urge to cry but I hold on to it. Guess I couldn't hold anymore as I was walking back....
Sometimes I really wonder. Why will be the one there for me when I needed them the most? I used to have someone really close but now.... I don't know. What is happening between us? What changed everything? Was it me? Did I changed so much that I already don't have anyone beside me who I can share my troubles with? Am I the only one left in my own little world?
I really got no answers to all those questions in my mind now.... I just feel that tonight I have become really weak.... Maybe I really need to cry my hearts out.... But... Do I have a reliable shoulder that I can lean on....?
1:49 AM
Recently it had been a really a star struck week for me.
28 March --- Woke up early in the morning and went to SIM to let the office verify my certificates for the application of my degree. After that rushed home and packed my stuff to get ready to go to the airport.
At around 1pm I left my house with a backpack and headed for the airport for my flight to KL. How should I put it? This is not the first time I am traveling since I just went on a trip to Taiwan in December but this is the first time I am traveling alone.
Hehe... Yup you read that right. I went to KL alone. =P Well, I don't think many people know about it except for maybe those closer to me and my parents. Even my sis didn't knew that I went. Haha.... If she knew she will be nagging non-stop.
Anyway I arrived at the airport and did my check-in. At around 4:40pm I finally boarded the flight. Since it was a really short flight I didn't sleep.
Once the plane landed at LCCT in KL, I immediately rushed to check-out and went to look for the bus which will take me to KL Sentral. Luckily I managed to find the ticket sales and bought the ticket.
A random shot of the airport while walking
Shot from the bus
A very bored me in the bus
I immediately boarded the bus and waited for it to depart. However, luck wasn't on my side. The bus didn't left the terminal until around 6 plus. Haiz... my plans for the day was officially delayed. Anyway since it was an hour bus ride to KL Sentral, I took a nap after taking some photos of the passing sceneries.
At around 7 I finally reached KL Sentral. With the print-out of the train map in hand I searched for the correct train and bought my tickets. To get to my destination I had to change trains and this let me experience the different trains running through KL.The first one I took was really slow and the train seems to be really old.
The station
The station captain on duty
The interior of the super old train
The second ride was so much better since the train was newer and faster but I wasn't in the mood to take anymore photos because I was running late for my appointment with my friends.
Well what is the appointment that made me flew all the way to KL? Of course it must be something important and grand.
Can guess what it is after seeing the above photos???
Answer revealed... it's 'Fahrenheit's Fantasy World Tour' in KL, Malaysia!!!!
Hehe.... Yes I know I had already been to the one in Singapore but this one was really tempting. The airfare was rather cheap on AirAsia as I couldn't resist the temptation. Plus my friend, Karen who is KL was so kind to help me buy the VIP Standing tickets so yup, I decided to make a trip over.
I managed to reach the stadium at around 8:30pm after taking the wrong side of the train when I transit. I ran all the way from the train station to the stadium so as not to let Karen wait too long. Luckily we managed to find each other although we have not met before. Hehe....
After getting the ticket from Karen and a bottle of water from the vendor outside, I rushed inside the stadium to meet up with Mya and Zhen who were already there. Luckily I was able to be able to be near them considering that they were really close to the stage. I sat my bag outside of the barrier and equipped myself with my camera ready to take in the full action of the night's fun.
I was really high that night because our spot was so good we got to see all four of them near us. Hehe... I truely didn't regret flying over and rushing like mad for the concert. It was totally worthwhile and they were practically in my face!
Managed to take quite a number of clear photos with either of them in front of me. Of course some turned out really bad too since I was in front and the spotlight affected it as well.
I really got to ask around people at my office how to use my camera. I really want to take good photos for the next concert I go to which is probably Mayday's concert in Singapore in August.
Anyway, after the concert, Mya, Zhen and I met up with Karen, Jowyn and her family at the enterance. Before we left, we took a group picture together.
(from left) Me, Karen, Mya, Zhen and Jowyn
Well, just a little profile of each of them. Karen is a super hip mum with 2 sons but still has the time to go for Fahrenheit's concert. Mya specially flew all the way from Australia to Malaysia just to watch the concert because Fahrenheit haven't been to Australia so she decided to make a trip to see them. Zhen, a Malaysian girl who I believe is only 15 or 16 this year and I really got to applaud her. She actually went to the concert alone. Wow... At that age I don't think my parents allowed me to go concerts. Lastly Jowyn, well I don't think I need to introduce her much. Hehe... the big sister who went with me to Taiwan. Hehe...
After that mini photo taking time, we decided to go the MacDonalds where Mya is staying to grab something before we all head back. I was really looking forward to eating because I had not eaten anything for the whole day except for fried beehoon like somewhere near noon.
Due to time difference between Australia and Malaysia, Mya was almost drained when we were in MacDonalds. After all the concert ended close to 12am so by the time we got to MacDonalds it was already like 1am which is like 4 or 5am in Australia!
Anyway we had a quickbite before everyone of us head back to rest. Karen was really nice to drive Mya and me back to Mya's hotel where I would be bunking in for the night.
Before that let's take a look at the random shots I took on the way to MacDonalds:
The first thing we got into the hotel was to get the staff to get us a cab ready for us by 5am so that we could get to the airport by 7am. After that was settled we took the lift up to the 13th floor where Mya was staying in.
So now let's take a look at the room I bunked in for the night:
For a room that cost close to RM600 per night, some tidbits should be reasonable right?
Nice layout of the room isn't it?
Beautiful view of the streets taken from the window of the hotel room
The hotel I stayed in for the night. It was also the same hotel Fahrenheit stayed in but sadly I didn't got the chance to see them at the hotel.
After showering and repacking my backpack, Mya and I zonked out at around 2:30am.
At 4am the both of us woke up and took a quick shower before we double-checked our stuff and made our way out of the hotel to get to the airport. We boarded the cab which the hotel had got for us and started out our nearly 90 minutes ride to the airport.
On the way to the airport, we passed by the F1 circuit so I tried to take a photo of it but I don't think it turned out well.
Can't remember what I was trying to take in this picture. But well.....
We reached the airport at like 6 plus I think. The driver wanted to charge us RM135 but at the hotel the staff told us RM120 so we stick to that amount and paid the driver. No way are we going to give him extra since RM120 is already pretty expensive for taking a cab.
After Mya check-in, we roamed around for a bit before deciding to go into the waiting area earlier to sit around.
Once again the flight was delayed so I took the time to sms Dinah to find out what's the situation like at the Singapore Fahrenheit autograph session because we knew that a lot of people will be queuing overnight and that many others would be flying to Singapore after the concert the night before.
Just as expected, when we boarded to flight it was full immediately because many of them also wanted to reach Singapore earlier too. Hehe...
I thought I could get up my full encounter of star struck but I think this post is long enough so the rest will be in Part 2......
1:29 PM
At around 8:30am on 6 April 2009, the music industry lost a beautiful voice. Although she was not really famous but her songs are still being spread around even up till today.
She first made her debut in 2003. After her song 叶子 (leaves) was used in the drama 《蔷薇之恋》(The Rose), she was given the named as 'Healing Singer' because of her soothing voice. After that she released two albums. Unfortunately the songs were famous but the albums did not really sell.
In this 4 years or so, there were not much news about her. Everyone thought that she had moved off to China to develop her career however during this period she was diagnosed with cancer and had been undergoing chemotheraphy.
All these while she kept mum about it and even hid the news from her colleagues. Only those who were really close with her knew about it. Even at her death bed she still strongly believed that all the pain will pass through and she would be able to recover.
I guess the really sad thing would be not being able to make her dream to get married this year come true. Finding a true love is not easy and when she finally found someone fate decides to bring her away.
I spent some time just now to look at the blog of Z Chen 张智成 and Sophia of JS. Just reading their posts it already brought tears to my eyes.
For the whole day since I heard of the news, 叶子 had been playing on my player. When I first heard this song I fell in love with it. Every line of the lyrics just brought me closer to the song. Although the singer is already gone but I know for sure that this song will always and forever be my favourite.
Life is really unpredictable, we never know what will happen next so it is always good to treasure everyone beside you.
Life and death seemed to be surrounding frequently lately.
Just on 30 March, a promotions personnel, Peter of HIM Taiwan passed away due to heart failure. I had only saw him once but it still make me cry and think a lot when reading the messages everyone left for him on the forum and of course the blog posts of those close to him.
I know how emotional I can get so I should stop looking at things that will make me sad. However it is easier said than done. Since I sat down in front of my home PC I had been surfing for news about this new lost and rewatching the memorial of another artiste, Beatrice Hsu 许玮伦 who had passed away in an accident two years ago.
No matter how much we say now, we will never be able to bring them back but I still feel the need to tell them how much we love them because I am sure they can still feel it even though when they are up there.
阿桑，一路好走。希望你在天堂可以继续开心的唱歌。你最美丽的歌声会继续在我们的身边围绕着。
28/2/1975 - 6/4/2009
Since I already started on this post, please allow me to drop another few notes to those who are already not by our side.
Peter, 虽然和你只有一面之缘但我相信你一定是一个很棒的人。希望你在天上可以开开心心的。
玮伦，虽然你离开已经两年了，但再次看见你的光芒音乐会我还是不禁伤心难过起来了。我相信到现在所有喜欢你的朋友都仍然记得你那天使般的笑容。记得要在天上继续微笑，让所有关心你的人每一天都能快乐。
Darrel, don't know why I suddenly miss you a lot. It had been a year plus since you left us but until now trust me, all of us still misses you a lot. Everytime I saw your name and number in my mobile I really got the urge to make a call. But I know no matter what no one will answer that call. The idea of deleting that contact had ever crossed my mind but no matter how hard I try I just can't press the button to do so. Hope you have been happy up there. All of us still misses you very much and do appear in our dreams once in a while okay? We really wish to see you and know how you are. Always have that angelic smile my dear friend and be happy........
This post is really heavy but well it covers what I have been feeling recently. Hope that all the unhappy moments will pass soon and the skies will be clear once again.....
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